my 100th post

yes. the only reason why i stopped blogging for quite a while is because i wanted to save my 100th post for after exams. and now i dont know what to blog about. good job. okay anyways hols have started. im happy.


okay just remembered i wanted to blog about something. During the exam period, i learnt something very important. that you are bad at physics? No.i realised that long ago. during the sunday right smack in between our exams i was surprised with a question:" what is your actual purpose for studying?" for a moment, i was dumbfounded. who or what was i trying to get good grades for? well, i do go around telling people that i want to become a doctor when i grow up, but actually i dont really know. just because im supposedly good at science everyone expects me to become a doctor or some top notch researcher in the future. i answered just to aviod prying questions and avoid nagging on how i lead such an aimless life.


maybe i studied so i could "fit in" with everyone else. after all, who doesnt like a person with good grades? IN GENERAL.


i was then told, "why not study for God? afterall, all our actions can be a form of worshipping God. no matter your grades, as long as you have done your best, God would honour you.' haha. it seems God does sound like a parent sometimes afterall.


i went into the exam hall with a much calmer mind for the rest of the papers. i just wanted to do my best.


of course, if i were to do badly, i would still feel dissapointed. but maybe i feel more at peace afterall. perhaps i used to view such stuff as excuses for doing badly. but this is different. im not blaming my cat, dog, or frog for any thing. its more like a new goal set in my life.


i will never be a perfect person, but at least i can try to sin less everyday.